Mueller wakes up in the morning to prepare for his day… in a panic:
The country is counting on me and my team. I have solid indictments privately filed. I know how to talk to that crazy acting Attorney General, Matthew Whitaker, who the president has put in charge of my investigation… and I know he will leak secret FBI information to the president. I know how to handle this. Then why am I crawling out of my skin?
His personal protection specialist is waiting for him as he exits his home to leave for work. Mueller knows he needs to move with grace. Nothing is guaranteed. Not even his life.
Mueller mulls over his thoughts in the car, as his driver takes him to work:
I know the level of corruption in the administration. I know the intentions behind this mountain range of depravity. I am secretly horrified, but I don’t have a moment to reflect on this.
I don’t believe I am enough to change the course of things alone, especially if the present government can take me out. I need to move carefully with protection. I need something more… I need the help that supersedes the human world. And I’m not religious.
We are at risk of moving into an imperious era in which we lose our freedoms. And this could lead to violent uprisings and even military control.
I have uncovered unprecedented corruption through my investigations. The present administration, including the president, partnered with the Russians and other sources with the intention – to alter the election results. And this is just the beginning. I am close to presenting my findings. I think I am becoming more clear on how I will present them. But I am concerned about the courts.
Einstein has been listening to Mueller’s thoughts. He surrounds him in Light, knowing he will return to his dream during his sleep later in the night
Later that night Mueller lies in bed as he is falling asleep… and wonders:
Why do I have this feeling that there is something about to happen as I fall asleep? I feel a sense of peace… that I am not alone…
He falls asleep in his thoughts and wakes up in his dream where he finds himself at the pastel stone table in that same kitchen with soup… and bread that smells of home. Theodore Roosevelt, Ruth Bader Ginsburg, Brett Kavanaugh, Sonia Sotomayor, and Angela Merkel are sitting around the table talking.
Teddy Roosevelt fidgets in his chair as he turns to Brett Kavanaugh:
It’s amazing that in 1913, I had more respect for women’s rights than you have ever had. How is that? The world should have been evolving. Where are you coming from?
Well, maybe you were not as religious as I am. I believe a woman should obey her husband. She is here to bear children and raise them with the values that align with her husband.
What about the values of his wife? Does she count for nothing?
I believe in the bible and its teachings.
Then tell me why you would support the president in 2018. He is anything but aligned with the bible.
Well, he will elect conservative judges and then we can change the nature of government to reflect the bible and its teachings.
Don’t you mean… that you, as the Federalist Society judges, plan to change the nature of government to force citizens to align with your particular religious beliefs? You are trying to defy the constitution, not honor it. You are trying to have your government controlled and mandated by your religious beliefs.
We came to America to get away from this kind of oppression. You are dishonest in your communications. And that was so obvious in your confirmation hearings. But they approved you anyway because of your conservative buddies who own them. The Republican Congress lacks integrity, character, and vision… and they have failed to uphold that all humans are created equal. They will be compensated for your confirmation. You are trying to take our country down to their level. And the president is a pawn for all of you.
I am not retiring because of this, Teddy. I will stand for the rights of all people… until my last breath.
I’m concerned that the president could set up this Supreme Court with Federalist Society pawns so that this court could overturn verdicts that support the people and the welfare of this country. Will we be able to take action before he has the power he is gathering as he appoints more judges?
The court is full of appointments from the Federalist Society. Leonard Leo, the executive vice president of the Federalist Society has had a direct influence on the Supreme Court Justice appointments of Kavanaugh, Gorsuch, Alito, Roberts, Clarence Thomas, and the late Antonin Scalia. And the Circuit Court Judge, Amy Coney Barrett, who has suggested that Roe v. Wade was “an erroneous decision” is now on Trump’s shortlist for a Supreme Court seat.
I’m concerned for the welfare of the United States. The Federalist Society recruits young conservatives who have records of being anti-abortion, anti-LGBTQ rights, anti-feminist rights, and who support ‘anti-voting’ rights. They diminish the rights of citizens, in the name of religious ‘freedom’. They want freedom for white male billionaires to dominate and take leadership of the United States.
I will never relinquish my vision for this country.
Merkel jumps into the conversation:
I am more tied into cooperating with the Russian government and I have less freedom as a leader. But you Americans have so much more with which to work… You have been our inspiration… our hope for a better world… even though we do not say this out loud… And now with your present leader, we feel so alone… and our hope is waning. I am an independent and competent leader and I will forge ahead, but I miss America… the land of the free and the brave… Where are you?
Brett, you are a product of a government which has lost touch with its people and instead uses greed and domination to lead the way. You do not inspire the world anymore. The world is in a state of disbelief… and horror… that the United States of America has lost its Spirit of Liberty for All…
Sonia Sotomayor, a Supreme Court Justice, sits at an angle to Mueller with one of her hands folded over the other, as she responds to Merkel.
I understand what you are saying, Angela, but I want you to know something. In the Supreme Court, we come together as a family. We spend more time with one another than we do with our own families. Something happens with us. We are individuals and we come with different interpretations of law… of the constitution. But our relationship with one another is very important. We do not turn on one another or make the other wrong. We engage each other with passionate and spirited conversation… in our decision-making process. Yet we do not shut each other out because of our differences. We dialogue. And then there are those sacred moments when we allow ourselves to be changed by one another.
Brett, you are now a part of our family. Maybe you have been a part of different groups or societies, but now we come together… in our work family… to uphold legal rights for what is good and true – for individuals, groups, and for our country.
I’ve been listening to your communications with Bob Mueller. There are concerns I have Brett… that you have an intention to change the nature of government to reflect the bible. This is not the nature of a Supreme Court Justice… nor is it the nature of our Supreme Court.
Kavanaugh looks down at his plate, grabs a piece of bread and munches.
Brett, is this how you will respond with us in the Court?
Kavanaugh slowly moves to respond to Ginsburg:
I have always been in a political world. I am way over my head. I have followed all the rules to get ahead, but I never expected to be here now. I know that the Federalist Society put me here so I would do their bidding.
But Brett, as a Supreme Court, our country depends on us to transcend our individual past… to transcend what brought us here. We come to transcend ourselves. I know we don’t do it perfectly, but we hope to achieve this so we can represent and act as the highest court of law. We are the elders of law. We have to open new eyes… the eyes of the elders… We need these lenses to fulfill our responsibilities as Supreme Court Justices. We can’t hold grudges or prejudices with ourselves or with others for whom we may make momentous decisions…
Kavanaugh looks down again. It feels different this time. His face is soft and gentle with contemplation.
Rainer Maria Rilke seems to appear out of nowhere, standing across from Sotomayor at the table. He looks into her eyes, smiles… and then turns to Kavanaugh:
” -the point is, to live everything. Live the Questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. Resolve to be always beginning-to be a beginner!”
He then winks at RBG before disappearing. RBG laughs out loud before she adds:
Oh, I remember something Abraham Lincoln once said. “I don’t like that man. I must get to know him better.” What would change in our world if we had this attitude? I don’t like you, Brett, so I want to get to know you better.
Thank you for being honest with me. I remember now, as you quote from Lincoln, a quote from Orson Scott Card who is an American novelist. He is the great-great-grandson of Brigham Young. He once said. “When you really know somebody you can’t hate them. Or maybe it’s just that you can’t really know them until you stop hating them.”
Kavanaugh then returns to his repose.
Mueller takes a deep breath of relief. His next list of indictments and his findings will soon throw the country into chaos. He knows this and is grateful for a democratic House who will take the actions needed. He quietly grieves that his own party is impotent.
“Maybe, it’s more like you said before, all of us being cracked open. Like each of us starts out as a watertight vessel. And these things happen-these people leave us, or don’t love us, or don’t get us, or we don’t get them, and we lose and fail and hurt one another. And the vessel starts to crack open in places. And I mean, yeah, once the vessel cracks open, the end becomes inevitable…But there is all this time between when the cracks start to open up and when we finally fall apart. And it’s only in that time that we can see each other, because we see out of ourselves through our cracks and into others through theirs. When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never looking inside. But once the vessel cracks, the like can get in. The like can get out.”
―John Green, Paper Towns
“That which offers itself to us with starlight, that which offers itself to us, hold it like world in your face with might, take it seriously. Show night that you received silently what it bestowed on you. Not until you go over to it entirely will night know you.“ Rilke, August. 1924
“The world gets up with you, and beginning glistens on all the breaking-places of our failure … “ Rilke, October. 1925
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